On the 3rd of April, 2006 at about 6:42 p.m, the doorbell rang, and I told one of my children to get the door. A British man that I never knew walked into our house. He was accompanied by three other men that were well known to me though. Then I started suspecting that something would have gone wrong. I guessed right. Andrew's death was announced. I shouted, tried to run out, but was held back. Everything in my stomach gorged out of my stomach at the speed of light, triggered by the shock of the news.
I was in total denial. I quoted all the scriptures I knew for assurance, and came up with all the positive confessions. It took 4 days for me to get an approval to see his body, then I knew he was gone for real. It was difficult to accept, and moving forward with life was almost impossible. I was at the end of myself, I couldn't figure anything out, and I realized that I had lost control of my life and the lives of my children.
I had to abandon us to Him. I remember telling God at a stage to take absolute control of us.
That was the best prayer I prayed for us at that moment. Supernatural things that were beyond me in this world started happening to us. Highly, highly, incredible things in positive directions.
What are you still holding on to after the passing of your loved one? I will advise you to give it to Him. What questions do you feel like asking? Ask God. The truth is that He has all you want.
Isaiah 61:7 NASB
Instead of your shame you will have a double portion, And instead of humiliation they will shout for joy over their portion. Therefore they will possess a double portion in their land, Everlasting joy will be theirs.
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